"Like a Virgin"

     Hello world its me again, and i have to say it feels good to be back at the helm of my keyboard :).
as i sit here in my chair, smoking my cigarette wondering about what i should write about, wondering about what would impact you all in the most drastic way. I'm sure you're all wondering about who i plan on yelling at or what mean spirited thing to i have to say about so and so.

     I've been thinking alot about the direction of this blog and where i want it to go, how to achieve my goals as far as followers and subscribers. I'm at the point to where im not sure what to write because i have family and friends who would be immensely pissed about some of the things i do want to write about on here, and that would cause problems in my home life. I find myself hesitant to speak the truth on some matters and i feel hypocritical for that because ive always put honesty and truth above all else in life.

     As of today, ive decided that i no longer care about the repercussions of my actions and words here on this site. If I am to make this blog what it is supposed to be and do justice to my readers and those who know and love me i must embrace honesty to the fullest extent. Now then, with that said, on to our feature presentation.


     Many people have asked me to write about this for a long time now. Even today ive had people pestering me about details of my relationship with a girl named sacha. Today i plan to give that story, MY story, in hope that people will be satisfied and finally leave me to forget those events that transpired, and in doing so i shall find peace.

     To begin, id like to say first off that i loved her with all my heart, we were together for five years for christ sake what do you expect? I honestly thought that we were going to get married and have kids and live for God and all that mumbo jumbo.... I never treated her badly, never laid my hands on her or abused her verbally. I always tried my hardest to uplift her to be closer to God almighty in hopes that she would ascend to greatness just like i believed she was destined to be, and i thought id always be at her side to see that day... but, alas, it wasnt meant to be...

     At the demand of our pastor, her mother, an evangelist, and her friends....she was to rip my heart out and smear it all over my life... over the GODDAMN PHONE! She never spoke to me about anything, she just said that i wasn't "uplifting" enough to her, really now?? and in the coming days and months she preceded to make my life a living hell...how you ask?? well her mother just happened to be my landlord... (this is the part where i stab myself in the neck). Her dear mother has always hated me because of one simple thing, I come from a background of poverty, and that's all i have to say about the mother cause she can just go fuck herself, i don't give a damn about her.

     In recent days ive done all i can to put her behind me, and it is my sincere hope that this all be put to rest, Ive found a little evidence that suggests that sacha cheated on me, and i dont care enough to to prove it because i just want it to end but before i end anything there is one thing that i must publicly apologize to sacha for, and it is my sincerest hope that this reaches her ears.

     Sacha, if you're reading this i want you to know that i lied to you once and only once. Remember when you told me that you let your ex-boyfriend stick his penis inside of you and you asked me if that meant you weren't a virgin and i reassured you that you were a virgin? Well i lied to make you feel better, youre not a virgin and you can ask your mom and your pastor and all those fucks who convinced you that i wasnt good enough for you. Have a nice life :)

     In closing, id like to say that i am a firm believer in that you can only hate someone as much as you onced loved them. Remember those words in your own lives and try to forgive those you love because someday they may become the bane of your existence. Stop the cycle of hate....be honest.